naked nightmares

i never thought too much about my dreams, or even remembered them much for that matter. but recently, within the past several months, ive voiced my concern of how vividly real my dreams have been becoming. they tend to be creepily real and sometiems even haunt me throughout my next day or even throughout my whole week. i rarely think too much about their purpose, other than what they obviously portray: usually a crush, or a concern, or a worry, maybe a test or an unprepared paper due the next day, or a concert i missed out on, or getting in a fight wiht the folks, etc. 

however, the other day i was blabbing on with whitter like usual and i told her about my most recent creeper dream in which i kept waking up wiht cold sweats and chills :/. but in one of the dreams, not only did i hook up with my long time secret crush,(how old do i sound?), but i also find myself completely naked later at the same party with many people around. i look down and kindof scream and look up to see others reactions and two guys look at me unconcerned and jus nod their heads and say "its chill. yeah?" as if to agree they don mind if i don mind..

this part of the dream was the least of my concerns considering this dream ended up carrying on to a whole new dimension including theives, monsters, near death experiences, jumping from world to world like a disneyland theme park etc...

but whitney found it interesting and assured me that "no, naked dreams definitely mean something.." she looked it up andn the next day at school informed me that it usually means im afraid of having my 'insecurities revealed' and people finding out the truth so to speak. 

too bad this is kinda dead on..

with my weight, with my wishes, with the image i portray or wish i had vs. the person i really am... and the long time secret crush that when it comes down to it im jus too fucking chicken to actually let anybody know cus im so confident that hed be disguested ... :/ its not healthy and im pretty sure thats why ive been having these dreams of being naked/running away/falling down/searching for something..

i have confidence issues.. lets fucking work on that, shall we?..