#4

"patiently waiting";

intake;

-green tea

-veggie juice(beats, carrots, celery, lemon)

-couple bites of sunflower seeds

outtake;

-work for 6 hours(on my feet)

sins;

-one so far

(p.s. yestereday i had several more after my post ha..)

-->8 eating so far is pretty good but its crazy how i already miss the feeling i had yesterday.. of like being accomplished and feeling detoxed. feeling kinda achey but not even.. jus a bad headache. today for some reason i kinda feel like being at work and kinda doing a lot of activity carrying plates, cleaning, taking orders, etc, i worked my muscles more and it almost feels like theyre bulging more now? idk ha its probably jus my imagination. but yeah im feeling pretty good still but getting hungry :/ i can eat, as long as stick to my rules. and as long as i dont binge. knock on wood! i want to have fun tonightttt i wanna see the boys. but yeah idk.. hmmm, idk im kinda cranky or something i feel like. not cranky, but jus not as enthusiastic as i was yesterday?

oh i jus remembered i havnt slept very much in the past three days. thursday night i tossed and turned until like 3am and last night i remember looking at the clock at like 4 or 5.. i think i musta been going in and out of sleep though. but id expect that id be more tired, idk. maybe keep me more upbeat? :) give me strenght <3>

update}

intake;

-green tea

-veggie juice(beats, carrots, celery & lemon)

-couple bites of sunflower seeds

-innout french fries

-6(38 cal each) cookies

-some kettle corn

-two slices of whole grain bread

sins;

-several cigarettes

--->now 4(formerly 8)why cookies? why french fries? why so manyyy cookies? why so much desserts? why fast food? :/ its not as bad as a binge, but it couldve taken a lot less to make me full :(( disappointed..