"textsfromlastnight.com" ..continued on into this morning
me: wish i was layin next to you right now
him: i wouldnt mind that
me: aand maybeeee somethin elsee
him: what would you have in mind
me: well remember that night in santa barbara?
him: oh god that was so much fun casey :)
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me: remind me why i should go to the gym again? :/
him: (you said it would make you last longer : p )but you don need no stinkin gym!!
me: meh what time you get off?
him: 3 i hope
me: 3! well fuck. ill go to the fuckin gym. maybe itll whip ma booty inta shape so i can be sexy for my guy : p
me: thats you boo
him: you can get more sexy?!
makin me bluuuushhh : ) hha laahhuuuuuhv hhiimmmm
should be inspiration enough, right?? thinspiration i mean ; )
sometimes im happy when i look in the mirror.. like not absolutely confident and perfectly content with what i see.. but happy enough ya know? but those days are so rare. if i could go for at the very least just a solid two weeks of looking in the mirror and seeing what i want and looking myself in the eye and telling myself i know its gunna be a good day, everything i do is going to be aimed to do right, to do good, to do better.
2.{today} so far..
intake;
-3 pieces of whole grain wheat bread
-handful or two of organic raw sprouted sunflower seeds(protien!)
-wata(need more still!)
outtake;
-going to the gym with mami soon?? mayyybeeee.. think i should? i mean i wanna burn cals but i don wanna build muscle! possibly in my butt and thighs but absolutely not in my upper body/arms! eeek
-----> 4; low score due to bread, why hte mass amounts, anyway??? if youre gunna have a snack, have fruit, veggies, things with nutritional value! were working on getting rid of our sweet tooth so that we dont even crave the damn goodies anymore! haha. my ideal goal is to get to the point at the end of two weeks (or even before) to no longer desire sweets, fatty foods, or dairy products like butter(evilllll), cheese(badddd), or milk, and only drool over dreams of kisses and cuddles and adventure and self improvement, intellectual expansion, meeting new people, living up to expectations, impressing my elders, having the boys wanna get with me, and having the girls wanna be like me, being proud of who i am, being confident to walk tall, being able to accomplish goals and set up new ones, having ethics beliefs and morals of my own opinions, being my own person, discovering who that is and work on creating her ideals, being a strong individual, self-dependent, reliant on few, but never on others(especially peers/friends/boyfriends), intelligent wise and strong woman of highly respected integrity and self-worth. i wanna be able to respect myself.
No one can make you feel inferior without your consent. -- Eleanor Roosevelt
Peace visits not the guilty mind. -- Juvenal
I myself am made entirely of flaws, stitched together with good intentions.
-- Augusten Burroughs If I have lost confidence in myself, I have the universe against me.
-- Ralph Waldo Emerson
One of the secrets of life is to be honestly who you are. Who others want you to be, who you used to be, and who you may some day become ... these are fantasies. To be honestly who you are is to give up your illusions and face today with courage.
-- Bill Purdin
If one advances confidently in the direction of his dreams, and endeavors to live the life which he has imagined, he will meet with a success unexpected in common hours.
-- Henry David Thoreau
To be pleased with one's limits is a wretched state. -- Johann Wolfgang von Goethe
To know your limits is a state of self-delusion. -- Bill Purdin
The body is a sacred garment. -- Martha Graham
Actions have consequences...first rule of life. And the second rule is this:
You are the only one responsible for your own actions. -- Holly Lisle
It is as hard to see one's self as to look backwards without turning around.
-- Henry David Thoreau
.. the mouth speaks what the heart is full of. --Jim Beggs
Self-pity in its early stages is as snug as a feather mattress. Only when it hardens does it become uncomfortable. -- Maya Angelou
It is easy in the world to live after the world's opinion; it is easy in solitude to live after our own; but the great man is he who in the midst of the crowd keeps with perfect sweetness the independence of solitude. -- Ralph Waldo Emerson
Search others for their virtues, thyself for thy vices. -- Benjamin Franklin
I define comfort as self-acceptance. When we finally learn that self-care begins and ends with ourselves, we no longer demand sustenance and happiness from others.
-- Jennifer Louden
Look in the mirror. The face that pins you with its double gaze reveals a chastening secret. -- Diane Ackerman
Every time you don't follow your inner guidance,you feel a loss of energy, loss of power a sense of spiritual deadness. -- Shakti Gawain
Blessed are they who heal you of self-despisings. Of all services which can be done to man, I know of none more precious. -- William Hale White
The first principle is that you must not fool yourself -- and you are the easiest person to fool. -- Richard Feynman
Men and women are not prisoners of fate, but only prisoners of their own minds.
-- Franklin D. Roosevelt
It is the habitual thought that frames itself into our life. It affects us even more than our intimate social relations do. Our confidential friends have not so much to do in shaping our lives as the thoughts which we harbor. -- J.W. Teal
We know what we are, but know not what we may become. -- William Shakespeare
You grow up the day you have your first real laugh - at yourself. -- Ethel Barrymore
If you are all wrapped up in yourself, you are overdressed. -- Kate Halverson
At some point your heart will tell itself what to do. -- Achaan Chah
Be honorable with yourself if you wish to associate with honorable people.
-- Welsh Proverb
Enlarge your consciousness. If your consciousness is small, you will experience smallness in every department of your life. -- Robert Pante
The fool doth think he is wise, but the wise man knows himself to be a fool.
-- William Shakespeare
We are what we repeatedly do. Excellence, then, is not an act, but a habit. -- Aristotle
The shortest and surest way to live with honor in the world, is to be in reality what we would appear to be. -- Socrates
To thine own-self be true;
And it must follow, as the night the day.
Thou can'st not then be false to any man.
-- Hamlet. Act I. Sc. 3
It may be all right to be content with what you have; never with what you are.
-- B.C. Forbes
Some say that my teaching is nonsense.
Others call it lofty but impractical.
But to those who have looked inside themselves,
this nonsense makes perfect sense.
And to those who put it into practice,
this loftiness has roots that go deep.
I have just three things to teach:
simplicity, patience, compassion.
These three are your greatest treasures.
Simple in actions and in thoughts,
you return to the source of being.
Patient with both friends and enemies,
you accord with the way things are.
Compassionate toward yourself,
you reconcile all beings in the world.
-- Tao Te Ching
He that respects himself is safe from others;
He wears a coat of mail that none can pierce.
-- Henry Wordsworth Longfellow
Seek out that particular mental attribute which makes you feel most deeply and vitally alive, along with which comes the inner voice which says, 'This is the real me,' and when you have found that attitude, follow it. -- William James
Never think you're not good enough yourself. A man should never think that. People will take you very much at your own reckoning. -- Anthony Trollope
Everything that irritates us about others can lead us to an understanding of ourselves.
-- Carl Jung
The only tyrant I accept in this world is the still voice within. -- Mahatma Gandhi
No bird soars too high, if he soars on his own wings. -- William Blake
Knowing others is intelligence; knowing yourself is true wisdom.
Mastering others is strength; mastering yourself is true power. -- Tao Te Ching
If you have a skeleton in your closet, take it out and dance with it.
-- Carolyn MacKenzie
I am always ready to learn, although I do not always like being taught.
-- Winston Churchill
People seem not to see that their opinion of the world is also a confession of character.
-- Ralph Waldo Emerson
The temptation to moralize is strong; it is emotionally satisfying to have enemies rather than problems, to seek out culprits rather than the flaws in the system. God knows it is emotionally satisfying to be righteous with that righteousness that nourishes itself on the blood of sinners.
But God also knows that what is emotionally satisfying can be spiritually devastating.
-- William Sloane Coffin, The Courage to Love
Do you see a man who is wise in his own eyes? There is more hope for a fool than for him -- Bible, Proverbs 26:12
Love not what you are, but what you may become. -- Cervantes¬Ý
The way life treats you is a merciless mirror image of your attitude toward life.
-- Anonymous.
They all laughed. I drew their pictures and they asked for copies and I handed them out as if they were my tickets to the show. In the Navy Yard, I could drink with men because I worked with men; in the Parkview, I could drink with men because I drew their pictures. The world was a grand confusion. Finally, when I was bleary, when my hand wouldn't do what I wanted it to do, I went home. I would lie alone in the dark, feeling that I was a character in a story that had lost its plot. -- Pete Hamill, A Drinking Life
Maturity begins to grow when you can sense your concern for others outweighing your concern for yourself. -- John MacNaughton
A man's greatest strength develops at the point where he overcomes his greatest weakness. -- Elmer G. Letterman
Be not merely good; be good for something. -- Henry David Thoreau
We can never be certain of our courage till we have faced danger.
~ Duc Francois de La Rouchefoucauld
Freedom from desire leads to inner peace. -- Lao-Tzu
As long as you think you're green, you'll grow. As soon as you think you're ripe, you'll rot. -- Scott Horton (courtesy of Nicole Smith.)
The largest room in the world is the room for improvement. -- Anonymous
More people would learn from their mistakes if they weren't so busy denying them.
-- Anonymous
(this next one is like damn.. definitely an ideal up there on a pedestal)..
Signs of Emotional Security
1. Ability to deal constructively with reality.
2. Capacity to adapt to change.
3. Few symptoms of tension and anxiety.
4. Ability to find more satisfaction in giving than receiving.
5. Capacity to consistently relate to others with mutual satisfaction and helpfulness.
6. Ability to direct hostile energy into constructive outlets.
7. Capacity to love.
-- Dr. William Menninger
(well damn.. agree..)
HOW TO BE PERFECTLY MISERABLE.
1. Think about yourself.
2. Talk about yourself.
3. Use "I" as often as possible.
4. Mirror yourself continually in the opinion of others.
5. Listen greedily to what people say about you.
6. Expect to be appreciated.
7. Be suspicious.
8. Be jealous and envious.
9. Be sensitive to slights.
10. Never forgive a criticism
11. Trust no one but yourself.
12. Insist on consideration and respect.
13. Demand agreement with your own views on everything.
14. Sulk if people are not grateful to you for favors shown them.
15. Never forget a service you may have rendered.
16. Be on the lookout for a good time for yourself.
17. Shirk your duties if you can.
18. Do as little as possible for others.
19. Love yourself supremely.
20. Be selfish.
This recipe is guaranteed to be infallible.
-- Gospel Herald.
There is no satisfaction that can compare with looking back across the years and finding you've grown in self-control, judgment, generosity, and unselfishness.
-- Ella Wheeler Wilcox
I prefer tongue-tied knowledge to ignorant loquacity. -- Cicero, De Oratore
The goal in life is to die young -- as late as possible.
-- Ashley Montagu, Anthropologist
Research is what I'm doing when I don't know what I'm doing. -- Werner von Braun
Think. Believe. Dream. Dare.
-- Walt Disney's "Four Most Important Words."
Still I am learning. -- Michelangelo, on his death bed
I am obliged to exercise unlimited forgiveness because, if I did not forgive, I should thus act as if I were not guilty in the same way as the other has been guilty with regard to me.
I must forgive the lies directed against myself, because my own life has been so many times blotted by lies.I must forgive the lovelessness, the hatred, the slander, the fraud, the arrogance which I encounter, since I myself have so often lacked love, hated, slandered, defrauded, and been arrogant.
I must forgive without noise or fuss.
-- Albert Schweitzer
He that is good for making excuses is seldom good for anything else.
-- Benjamin Franklin
Love work.
Turn a deaf ear to slander.
Be considerate in correcting others.
Do not be taken up by trifles.
Do not resent plain speaking.
Meet offenders half-way.
Be thorough in thought.
Have an open mind.
Do your duty without grumbling.
-- Cicero
The accusations really say more about the condition of the accusers than that of the accused. -- Roderick MacLeish
Those who can't laugh at themselves leave the job to others. -- Anonymous
The remarkable thing is that we really do love our neighbors as ourselves; we do unto others as we do unto ourselves. We hate others when we hate oursleves. We are tolerant toward others when we tolerate ourselves. We forgive others when we forgive ourselves. It is not love of self but hatred of self which is at the root of the troubles that afflict our world. -- Eric Hoffer: U.S. Writer
Most of the shadows of life are caused by standing in our own sunshine.
-- Ralph Waldo Emerson
If you live only for yourself you always in immediate danger of being bored to death with the repetition of your own views and interests. -- Walter Beran Wolfe
He who believes in nobody knows that he himself is not to be trusted.
-- Berthold Auerbach
he mind may wander, but let not the senses wander with it. If the senses wander where the mind takes them, one is done for. -- Mohandas Karamchand (Mahatma) Gandhi
