i hate me

why do i repeatedly do this to myself.

is consistency so much to ask for? i was doing so well... and then BAM i hit a wall and melt down like a deflated sorry excuse straight out of a cartoon.. how pathetic am i? is it lack of self-discipline, boredom, self-pity, or depression??

tomorrow we start

tomorrow i start again.

you better begin to love the pain of starvation..

rules regulations restrictions to come;