extremities have overthrown my once fairly stable life to a rollercoaster ride epitomizing every inch of emotion or expression and blowing it up big ruining its simplistic beauty by jading its pure reality. tainted is the world i live in now, ive let go of pattern schedule agenda rules regulations boundaries limits self-discipline and eagerness for advancing expanding self-improvement... jus hope. i come to these conclusions on days that it hits me.. whats been wrong for a while. the fact that i know myself well enough to acknowledge if i do not continue to always remember personal morals objections ambitions goals motives inner strength development character pride honor respect discipline expectations intelligence heart worthiness family love beauty nature blessings intellect values expansion experience & the bigger picture..
how small do you feel when you stand beside the ocean?? how bout when you watch the news? or even simply remember the war?? ..how ungrateful and selfishly silly and spoiled and goddamn ignorant do you feel when making these obvious-but-easy-to-suppress Facts of Life? that youre not the fuckin SUN for goddamn sake, the world doesnt revolve around you. not even the world you live in, "your world" is still going on with or without you weather you grow a pair an cowboy up to play a part or not.
"bottom line" as blake would say.. ..im tired of this inconsistency. ive exhausted the ignorant senseless immature games i play with myself for some kind of entertainment rooting from purely selfish cravings but somehow more often than not, still failing to benefit me in anyway advantageous usually not even during which, but especially thereafter.
how do i expect to survive in a new environment with a whole new atmosphere of problems and webs to get tangled up in if im still unstable and probably in goddamn denial about my mistakes or insecurities. its easier to shove it under the rug or put up a front rather than face the monster and beat his ass down showin him whose the fuckin bossa me hahah fuck
so i wanna be serious. genuine and sincere. those are things i need to work on too.. being true to what i want for myself
so here it goes.. gotta work on my consistent presentation of myself and how putting into action how i wish to be perceived & actually living it
Need to Work on;
Good Health
..including but not limited to diet, activity(exercise or lack there of), & substance use(kept in moderation).
- Vegetarian - no red meat, no beef, no pork, no chicken, no steak, and so on. attain protein from salmon, sushi, any and all fish or seafood dishes!
- Lactose Intolerant - listen to what your body is trying to tell you. avoid dairy as often as possible, it slows you down and bulks you up! try for soy cheese or alternative seasoning in exchange for dairy products in personal entrees whenever available. at family dinners or eating out, jus use your head and be smart. the worst thing you could do is decide to "fuck it" and not think about it jus do whatever the hell you want, thats when you have regrets, because your bad decision in retrospect looks a hell of a lot different when youre able to say you actually thought about some kind of reasoning in approaching the regretful situation in the first place. jus please try an remember: everything in moderation.. risks rarely raise their head if youre tiptoeing trying to be harmless and count your blessings in the presence of the snoring beast, not to be awaken!! so pleeeeease keep it to minimal cheese, milk or cream ingredients or related products. jus avoid altogether the yogurt and pudding families.not to mention pretty much allll desserts and especially snacky type food but also many main course dishes are dripping in deceitful butter, cream, oil or salt. however, the oil and salt have way more accompanying health benefits than the former.. but when its up to you, stay away from butter/cream/massive amounts of cheese/yogurt/milk !!
- WATER WATER WATER - drinking the recommended 8 glasses a day(probably more after it becomes a necessary part of your life!) keeps you hydrated but also enables you to decipher a dehydrated tummy ache from a growling gut roaring with hunger pains. it has been said that as americans we eat so much often because were bored, greedy, or consumer crazy, but its also been said that its because we dont drink enough water, the media making it appear irrelevant and unappealing. regardless of why we dont value its natural miracles, often times people eat beacuse they think theyre hungry when theyre really jus sucked dry from thirst and by relation lack of energy! in addition, drinking water often and relentlessly enables your body to stop retaining the little water it received when in fear it wouldnt have the amount it needed to properly function in the future. possibly unnoticeable to the human eye but very freeing the any personal body, without having to retain all that water constantly, youll lose a bloaty type feeling that you probably had previously,swelling up your body with pockets of essential water - too scared to let it go ahead and do its job, making its way around the bodys cycle to hydrate, quench, supply vitamins, detox, and flush out toxins. how refreshing does THAT sound?! how could you pass up such a health benefitting habit? it gets addicting i promisee keep it uppp
- "treat your body like a temple"
- "you are what you eat"
- "seconds on the lips, forever on the hips"
- "the difference between WANT and NEED is self-discipline"
Good Mentality
.. stable, dependable and responsible outlook on life and oneself in the grand scheme of things.
"its not how hard you fall that makes you who you are, its how strong you bounce back"
- take medicine daily
- think before you act
- do it the right way! no cheating, no excuses. build character
- become comfortable in yourself, your personality appearance reputation habits nature friends family relationships intellect mistakes faults regrets closure past future ambitions plans goals daily actions, i can only imagine how empowering it must be to know who you are and be comfortable in who you are or at least who youre working on being and show some kind of resemblance to. it can enhance or inhibit self-respect, self-worth, pride, poise, honor, dignity, confidence, familiarity, caring, courage, spirit, strength, understanding, courteousness, sensibility, sensitivity, passion, ambition, sincerity, motive, spontaneity, hopes, dreams, satisfaction - but not too much satisfaction! only enough to keep you content but eager for more challenges. so oyou can battle em out and say confidently "this is me & this is how its gunna be, take me or leave me the way i am".. i honestly believe to reach this stage, it is essential if not completely necessary to live your life like you imagine you should. take the steps to work toward this..
Good Character
...in order to expand, advance, excel, thrive, flourish, bloom or succeed in college next year as well as anywhere else, i first need to learn to be independent. i am convinced that just like in any other romantic relationship, the bond you share with yourself - combining heart mind and soul - dependence on anyone or anything else than those things alone in the face of the best times or the worst times will only weigh you down making you handicapped at the race, raining on your parade of capability and said-to-be promising potential.
- comfortability physically & mentally
- surroundings - who and where i spend my time with effects who i am or who i might turn into be sadly unknowingly. be aware of not only WHAT your doing but HOW youre doing it.. think of WHY, WHERE, WHEN.. SO WHAT? come to a conclusion about the source of your decision and probably even a trigger that pointed you in that direction. "to Live is to live and learn, not jus float along and accept unconsciously"
- mannerisms, body language, politeness, courtiousness - especially to elders, strangers and loved ones. its only natural! remember the golden rule: "treat others as you would like to be treated." or "only do unto others as you wish to be done unto you." but what it all winds down to is that i dont hate anyone, i really dont. but the people i stroongly dislike are those who in whatever way or for whatever reason do not have respect for themselves or respect for others. i will never understand those who wish to put harm onto others for no real reason at all.. keep it clean! think about how youre being perceived and how you must appear to your loved ones and those who matter. or even in first impressions!! how nerveracking are those? but how relieving when youve passed with flying colors ; )
- grateful, blessed, caring, thankful, appreciative, selfless, or at least less selfish!, thoughtful, loyal, dependable, responsible - friends, family, loved ones, all those that have made a positive influence on my life. tell them often and much how i love them, appreciate them, adore them, honor them, how theyre my hero <3>
- Good Karma!! - "what comes around, goes around", "Good Karma Tips"nattycaf, "Humankind: be both.."
- Hard Working!!
- Self-disciplin!!!!!!
- punctual!! ..dependable right?!?!
- strong, value oneself and what one has to offer!! "dont let anyone ever tell you that you deserve less than your dreams"
look in the mirror... now smile.. oh cmon jus try!! optimisms the name of the game playas ; )
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